i died...

I died in a vacuum that suddenly
devastated all my dreams,
all my energy to fight for the first time
by that green meadow bathed by a crystal brook ...

at times I felt like a mere spectator
watching while on the movie screen
of a life that was no longer mine,
which may have never existed in the real world ...

a winter monsoon laced in torrent
flooding my face with a damp salt
followed by a silence that ripped apart
everything that no longer existed ...

the days, the weeks, the months
and the dark foam that fills my thoughts
in an incessant storm of altered waves
darkening the white nights of those who have died ...