so dark out there

today I did something that should be positive -
I helped to help a human being
that was wandering like a spinning comet
and yet did not cease to be alive like any other
mammal, terrestrial, aerial or marine ...

I should feel good about myself.
so why do I feel the emptiness of the abyss
invading me like a living tide?
I re-read what I felt many ages ago
listening to the sound of the music that best
defined the dream's the color of vanilla ice cream
tasty as the melody of a canary...

the feeling is there alive as ever,
riddled with thorns of solitude and silence ...
but only an immense darkness invades me
alone that I am, trapped in my own thoughts ...

I wanted to give up, dare to
escape from a loneliness hard
as if an iron mask
hide my feeling and I could just
watched on screen the lives of others
without ever being allowed to live ...

no one will ever realize that only a dream matters ...